Hi, my name is Malaria Seven alias Amalia Sophia Riatoni. Some years ago something really strange happend to me. First I thought, I would forget, but I couldn’t. It was also in my dreams.

Now I try to make a real project out of it. I thought, we should call the project “Fade to Black”. I don’t know yet. Maybe you have a much better titel to suggest, so please leave me a comment.

We want to find out, what really happend and everybody can join this investigation! And we can reconstruct a lot of it, because HE consigned a very personal archives. Everything is there!

But we also want to find the reason, why he did it. And we want to understand his world.

Just let me start with the beginning and begin to begin my story.

Find me on my MySpace Site and be my friend!

Your malaria7

P.s.: If you want to know more about this project, you can satisfy your curiosity.

I started this project on MySpace. I had an idea, what I wanted to do and I thought, this might be a good place to put it into action.

But on MySpace you need to have friends. You can send post bulletins to your friends and invite them to your site.

So I asked people, if they want to be my friend.

Some people asked me, why I ask them for friendship. Some are a little rude. Like this girl. She goes: Who are you and what do you want?
I say: Something strange happend to me and I can’t talk to anyone. I want to find some people here.
She goes: If you can’t talk to anyone, then why should you talk to me?
- I can’t talk to someone, who is far away and doesn’t know me.
She goes: All right, well I’m far away and I don’t know you, so we can’t talk.
- But I want to tell my story here to some people…
- Why?
Myself: Maybe to understand it better…
- How does telling others help you understand?
- Because what happend, was unbelievable.
- That makes next to no sense (sic!), but do what you want.

Well, I don’t know how to begin… It was five years ago. I still was working as a therapist for drugpeople. Not as a real therapist, more a kind of person you can talk to. We work on the street in a big kombi. The junkies, mostly girls, mostly prostitutes, come in and we give them a café and some sandwich and so. And we try to talk to them. I studied medicine and was educated as a therapist. That’s why I got this job. But anyone could do it. You just need to have some sensetivity. It was lousy payed and no one realy cared, what we did an how we did it.

One of my friends is an actress and a photographer and sometimes she works as a camera(wo)man. She also was a painter. She had sometimes some psychological problemas. And she was very feministic those days, I mean: very. She did not read much. She was not the kind of person, who would give a lecture on gender. But she misstrusted any man deeply. She also was very political correct, what I never was. She called me and said, that she is afraid. This meant, that she has a kind of panic attack, more or less. I work often with people, who have panic attacks.

I am sorry, but I really don’t know, how to tell a story. And I feel, that I beat about the bush (is this correct?). However… she told me things, she told me from a guy and showed me some coverage she did. And I said, I was shocked, but I wasn’t. Actually I was exited, in all means of the terme.

This material did fascinate me.

I really wanted to join. Sometimes I am a little vampire, I love to investigate personal secrets and explore all kinds of traumatas. Maybe this is, why I always wanted to be a psychologist. And so I got in the project by pretending I was a camera(wo)man.

I will put some of the material here, than I will try to continue. I will try my best to be straight ahead.

Yours, Malaria
(È già abbastanza tardi, buona notte!)

p.s. It’s always important to execute an idea and to reduce it to a practice.

p.p.s. I forgot to mention the name of my friend. Her name is Marie-Christine Hunter.

Now I am back. And I still don’t know, how I am going to start. Marie-Christine was telling me so many things! Should I tell you the story, like Marie-Christine experienced it? Or should I tell it, how I got to know all the ugly and exciting details or should I tell the story, how it happend and how I would reconstruct it?

I think she talked to me, because she needed help. The man, whom she shot with, called her und asked, if she had an infrared camera. The shooting was a little strange, because it was a kind of casting or it was a film about humiliating a girl in the casting. But this guy did this for real. And he wanted obviously to see, how far he could go. And he called her, because he want her to hit the street as a prostitute, he called it “Seelenprobe“. And this was his plan. And she just needed some backing. But this is much to confused. I start at the beginning, how he met this girl, this model.

Ophelia was a model und she was in the Kumpelnest (a Bar in Berlin) und she was there with two other models.

On of the models was Hanna. I did an interview with her. And she can tell you how they met in the first place.

[Here I will put the video of the interview.]

I was so exited I can’t tell you. I confess, that I even had dirty phantasies about HIM bevor I even met him. Marie-Christine took me along and there I was. We met at HIS place in Tiergarden and there was Andrés Fuentes Cannobbio, the first camerman, Marie-Christine, the second cameraman, Johannes Rexin, the executive producer, Daniela Schiffer, the assistant to the director an Ophelia Haneke, the actress and the model and HE HIMSELF, the director or perfomer or whatever. He was wearing sunglasses. And we all sat down at the table in the kitchen. There was a problem. The actress, the model wanted to quit. And we talked. And he told us, that we are suposed to continue filming, no matter what ever happens. I did.

I mean, I am not a cameraman and I couldn’t ask anyone to help me, because I was pretending to be one. I really made a very bad camera. And than something really funny happend. Something real. It’s better to show it, than to speak about it. And it is better to see it with your own eyes than to read it.

I really did not know the camera and for some reason I reduced my material to black and white. And I am really not a cutter. So I also have to excuse me for the bad editing.

If you are a cutter, maybe you can help me to make it better and re-edit the material. For this you must join the project.

But first have a look:

Some people - and it was also in the newspaper - said, that Manson was an influence to HIM. But I don’t think so. What I mean is, that this all has to do with the media. They made the connection.

I mean, we live in a world, where a black man, who kills a white girl ends on the electric chair, while Pinochet, who killed more than 6000 people, lived comfortable sunset years and got a great funeral.

Manson, Marie-Christine said, is a kind of an artist, but HE is an artist, a scientist and an activist at the same time. I don’t know. But I found a great video about Charly Manson. Have a look:

I think, I have to start again. With the very beginning, how everything started for HIM.

From the time HE quit his theatre work in 1994, HE worked on a novel project and on performances. In 1998 he did his first video project called Fucking White Trash. The idea of HIS main film project first came to him in 2000. From the beginning the project was called “Sometimes I am so lonley, I want to kill a Schoolgirl”. In November 2000 HE bought a Mini-DV camera and made some exercises. Among other experiments he filmed a playground. This is one of the strangest shots I ever saw. Take a look:

(Video)

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In january 2001 HE made a big casting with about 70 young girls aged beween 13 and 21. He was shooting with some of the girls through the spring. For the main part he casted three girls.

HE started to cut a short film in summer 2001. The film has no titels, but when he speaks about it, he calls it Sometimes I am so Lonley, I Want to Kill a Schoolgirl.